Wearing a Cardigan of Protection

Recently, I have felt something changing within me, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I noticed that my cardigans seemed to be too big or not sitting well on the shoulders. They were like an oversized coat that no longer fitted my frame and I started to question whether it was my posture, or my weight. Both remained the same, but something else had changed. Yesterday the understanding came fully as I was booking in for my monthly Esoteric Breast Massage – a super supportive modality offered by women practitioners trained by Universal Medicine.

In the last six months – and for the first time ever – I was starting to feel what true sacredness was in the body, as a woman, and how simple this felt. I started to feel that sacredness was not something I searched for on the outside – a picture that seemed complicated and hard to reach – but a quality: a feeling of being myself, that is very simple to feel, when I choose to surrender more and appreciate from within.

Up until this point I still had many ideas and beliefs of what sacredness would feel like. I was conditioning myself that it was going to be the BIG BANG moment where I would feel a massive change in how I lived, that would transform my life. I was searching for the marker outside my body yet not stopping to feel what was being shown from within.

There was no BIG BANG moment but a BIG awareness that what I was searching for on the outside was patiently waiting on the inside when I chose to let go of the layers of protection. Giving myself permission to return to just being me, I could feel how easily we can connect to our sacredness. Sacredness felt like not having to follow pictures of how to be someone. It was about connecting and feeling the real me, and this felt so easy and deeply loving.

This anticipated moment was offered with such love and pure simplicity and was showing me how we can live with ease, if we choose sacredness over protection every time. Choosing to let go of protection was a choice to let go of all the tension I was holding in my shoulders, as I’d walked around shielding myself from the world.

The space that my shoulders no longer filled was the posture I left behind, as I was choosing to carry the true me, over a ‘padded protected’ me.

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Image credit: Matt Paul

I realised that it wasn’t about the cardigans fitting or not, but appreciating that in the last six months I had committed to a level of surrender which allowed the layers of protection to fall away – the protection that no longer served me as armour to avoid feeling how deeply sensitive we all truly are.

The release of the old behaviours was shown in a simple piece of clothing, confirming that the way to return to our true selves comes from connecting to the innate sacredness that resides within each one of us. 

With deep appreciation of Serge Benhayon for bringing through this healing and powerful modality for all women to feel their true innate sacredness, and for the practitioners worldwide that offer their unwavering support to women connecting to the divinity we all are.

By AB, Australia

For further inspiration.. 

From low self-worth to embracing being a woman: a personal testimony on the support of the Esoteric Breast Massage. 

Sacredness: what is it, and where do we find it? One woman’s experiences of re-connecting to her body and inner knowing of who she is.