This week, I became my own image consultant and stylist and cleaned out my wardrobe, completely re-defining myself and my worth as a woman in the process.
It all started a little while ago when I went for an esoteric healing ‘bodywork’ session and named a certain way I’d been living that wasn’t very supportive or self-loving. As a result, and in the days following this session I could feel just how I held myself and my body in a certain way, and dressing in order to mask, hide or stop feeling the distinct lack of worth I felt as a woman.
Inspired By A Friend
For a period of time, I’d been paying a great deal of attention to my home – what I have in it, where I place things, how I care for it and how it feels to be living in it. A few days later post this particular healing session I was helping out a friend unpack her clothes into her new wardrobe. As we lovingly hung them she talked to me about how many clothes she had thrown away before moving and how cleansing that process had been. As she spoke, I could feel in my body an impulse to do the same, an impulse I had been dismissing for quite a while.
What was my reason for the delay? Well, I’m a shopaholic and had some beautiful clothes that I couldn’t bear to throw away! But in truth and feeling more deeply into my purchasing motivations, I realised how these beautiful clothes were an attempt to mask or protect me from feeling the ‘rot’ of my excess, unworthiness and dressing to please others. I became completely aware just how much my wardrobe ‘rot’ needed to be cleared out, something I could almost physically feel.
The Cleansing Process Begins…
As I pulled out all the clothes and tried them on, one by one, I could feel the certain energy I’d been living in when I purchased each garment, and even the events that had surrounded the purchase, for example ‘a bad day at work’; a ‘feeling fat day’; a ‘I want a boyfriend and best look sexy’ dress!
The way I had been living was completely wasteful, frivolous and totally unloving.
And as I tried on these clothes, I actually asked myself: “Is this item supportive and am I able to hold myself as the beautiful woman that I am and would like to be whilst I am wearing that?” And with this began the process of throwing out all the dresses and skirts I’d been holding onto for years – purely because I’d spent a lot of money on them, they were pretty or brand new.
Self-love Re-ignited
After my wardrobe cleanse, I felt amazing – lighter and clearer, and with this came a new and distinct choice to select which clothes were actually supportive for me to wear as a woman; a woman who has restored and re-ignited the connection to her own love, worth and appreciation.
Since going through this discarding process, each day whenever I dress, I am able to now feel a level of delicateness and self-love in what I choose to wear; how I take the clothes out of my wardrobe, off their hangers and how I wear them. My body feels stronger and taller and I can even feel my upper back opening more and straightening. I feel my beauty as a woman and honour this in what I choose to wear – every day.
I’m also truly grateful for this friend, who didn’t hold back in her expression when sharing with me the process she went through and also for the support of the esoteric practitioners at Universal Medicine who’ve supported me towards re-claiming the beautiful woman I feel and know I am. They’ve all been such amazing, loving examples of how through expressing ourselves and not holding back, we may also inspire another with an equal opportunity to heal.
My first wardrobe cleansing marks only the very beginning of a new relationship that I now have in re-defining myself back towards the true woman I am, and there’s only more to come…
Ps. In fact, since writing this article I’ve undergone a further two wardrobe cleanses, each one more deeply loving; and just as amazing and powerful as the last!
by Brooke Taylor, RTO Manager, Melbourne, Australia