In the past I have accepted that how I behave is who I am, deeming myself to be a good person or bad person dependent on how society views this behavior. I felt I was extremely bad and gross if I in any way found myself, or anyone else for that matter, to be ‘sexy’. I related being sexy to being sexual and if I were to feel and act sexy then I was trying to impose it onto someone.
All of this changed for me after attending Natalie Benhayon’s Sacred Women’s Movement classes. This led me to explore and find other false beliefs I wasn’t aware I had around what it meant to be sexy. Some of these beliefs I came to shine some truth on were:
- Being sexy is a form of leading men on and giving them the wrong idea
- Being sexy is a sexual act
- Being sexy is related to sex
- Being sexy is shameful and cheap
- Being sexy is attention seeking, neediness, trying to suck people into my web
- To be sexy and playful meant I was trying to be sexually attractive or sexual towards someone
- And what loaded this belief was the additional belief I had that sex is bad.
I have previously viewed sexiness as being associated with sex, leading people on, being a tease, and this has smothered my ability to behave and express freely in this way. When I thought sexiness was sexual and being sexual was a negative thing, I was very careful and cautious in how I moved my body. I could only be controlled in this way if I accepted these ideals and beliefs being taught to me as my truth – before I listen to how my body feels. For example, if I was out somewhere dancing and having fun, and then I noticed men looking at me in a certain way and women looking at me with disapproving looks, I started to believe the way I was moving was inappropriate and I was unseemly for doing so.
In society it is simple for someone to repetitively or convincingly share their point of view, loaded with ideals and beliefs about certain topics, and for me to automatically adopt thinking along similar lines, especially when I hear and see this ideal or belief backed up in society by other sources and/or people in the media or friends.
I can find these ideas to be very convincing if I first discredit what I feel and accept these ideas and beliefs being taught to me as my truth, before I listen to what feels right to me.
When this has happened I found I gave away complete control of how I did things, all to fit into how society viewed me, and what society in general deems acceptable and/or the norm. This discrediting of myself stopped when I started listening to that sense inside me that something is not quite right.
I was first introduced to the possibility of listening to the inner knowing of my body during these Sacred Women’s Movement classes facilitated by Natalie Benhayon and Karin Becker.
For the first time I started to truly listen to what my body was actually sharing with me.
We were encouraged to first connect to ourselves then give ourselves the freedom to simply move in any way we felt. This naturally deepened my connection to myself as I was listening more to how my body felt first and foremost, dispelling what felt like long held beliefs along the way.
The beautiful thing I have come to realize is the more I allow myself to be aware of how I am feeling and let this be my leading light, the more I start to open up to life and feel.
When I listen to my body I can feel so much; the connection, strength, truth, power, playfulness and solidity that comes with embracing all of me, including my sexiness. This feeling strongly confirms in me my power and has nothing to do with sex.
Our bodies are communicating with us all of the time therefore it does not matter how I move if I have first felt it is in harmony with my body.
I know it is okay for me if it does not leave me feeling racy, tired, agitated, excited etc. Knowing I am the one who chooses how I express is very freeing. What I have come to realize is I am already all that I am, so anything I do is simply an activity that shares this with the world around me.
If I feel amazing, joyful, powerful or full of self-adoration and grace when I have finished moving, how could this in any way be wrong?
I have noticed the more I let something play out by trusting my inner-wisdom, the more defined and real it becomes. When I allow myself to be sexy I am conveying and expanding my power and playfulness – and sharing this truth and power of sexiness with others so they can be inspired to bring their sexy back. When I claim myself as a woman in all my power, one of the qualities I express as part of me all of the time is sexiness, as I can feel how divine and sexy I am. It does not matter if it is just myself around or if others are around, I can fully express this way of being, knowing that it is actually just an opportunity for me to feel and own more of the sacredness I carry within. By denouncing old ways of thinking that are not in line with how I feel, I grow and expand.
Thanks to Universal Medicine, Natalie Benhayon and Karin Becker and the time they have shared to show women the moves of the Sacred Women’s Movement, I have now claimed back what it is to be sexy. Natalie playfully and clearly sharing what the movements mean and how healing they can be for a woman’s body and mind – this has supported me in feeling the false beliefs I have taken on of what it means to be a woman, replacing them with the truth of what being a woman is; all about and celebrating the amazing woman I am – as all women are.
By TS
Further Reading:
A Sacred Relationship with Self
Gayle Cue describes her experience to connecting to the stillness within and how as a woman it is to live and be with that true essence.
The Woman I am
Watch Miranda Benhayon sing of the joy of Women expressing all they are with music from Michael Benhayon.