It seems strange to say this now, but once upon a time I had no awareness of my breasts other than as:
- a visible marker of my womanhood
- objects of sexual pleasure
- a physical inconvenience due to persistent lumps and soreness.
In truth, I was actually more annoyed by my breasts than anything else. At times I resented their visibility and the fact that I would be judged in some way when given the ‘once over’ by others (men and women). I certainly was not impressed by the lumps and pain I’d experienced since my 20s, which had me frequently rushing off for mammograms, convinced I had cancer. There was some compensation for these woes, in terms of the feelings I derived from them during sex, but even this felt somewhat hollow and certainly didn’t offset my physical condition.
As I aged, another nagging sense emerged – that due to the way I was living it meant that I was, lumps or not, a breast cancer case waiting to happen. I didn’t know why this might be the case, but that was certainly my strong sense. So at age 40 I made a decision that my life had to change: that I would start to abandon my self-defeating and frankly self-abusive ways.
By then I’d just started to cotton on to the Universal Medicine Therapies, working solidly with my practitioner for six months before attending Universal Medicine presentations and workshops. Both aspects supported me enormously to make the changes I sought. Thankfully it wasn’t too long into my association with all things Universal Medicine that the Esoteric Breast Massage (EBM) modality was introduced.
What a game changer. Through the utterly gorgeous experience of the bodywork itself and the conversations that took place between me and my female practitioner I began to learn that my breasts:
- are a beautiful and delicate part of me
- support me to connect to my essence as a woman
- have the potential to emanate my naturally nurturing ways
- are for me first, before anyone else, and
- do not need to be lumpy and sore!
This last part was particularly astounding to me as over time my breasts’ physical composition has completely changed, flying in the face of the advice I’d often received from medical professionals who suggested they would always be fibrous, dense and painful.
My EBM experience showed me that how I was living (basically in complete denial of my womanliness) mattered, and that the hardness I’d developed was simply being reflected to me in my breasts. As I melted, so did the lumps in my breasts.
Ten years on, my EBM journey hasn’t stopped there. The process of deepening and developing as a woman, to surrendering to even more of the beauty inside, is ever-unfolding. And I’m still as in love with this most supportive of modalities as I ever was – bringing that love and respect to myself equally so. This means I’m now living with a whole new level of self-care and self-honouring – not only with regards to my breasts, but the whole of me and the way I live.
By Victoria Lister, Consultant and Business Owner, Brisbane, Australia
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