Over the past couple of years I have listened to various presentations by Universal Medicine in relation to what it means to be a ‘true woman’… that we as women have innate qualities of tenderness, preciousness and even sacredness within us – if we choose to surrender to them.
I have had moments of these qualities, which although amazing to feel at the time, they have not been part of my everyday experience or way of living. In fact, feeling these qualities so infrequently has only exposed more of the exact opposite in my body and the way I have been living.
A Woman Is Naturally Tender, Not Hard
Every woman has an innate tenderness or capacity to nurture. In the unfolding of this knowing, I became very aware of just how ‘hard’ or tense my body felt most of the time especially across my heart area. I could even feel a hardness in the way I spoke, the way I did things and in my way of thinking, in that I was a harsh critic and judge of myself if I didn’t live up to my picture of ‘perfection’ which I had created and expected of myself and others.
This was a very unloving way of being and far from any tenderness towards myself, let alone preciousness or sacredness.
Surrendering
Recently I had an Esoteric Breast Massage where I discussed with the practitioner how I took my body for granted and expected it ‘to do’ so much, and that perhaps ‘appreciation’ could be a focus or theme for the session. When I lay on the table, the holding and tension in my body especially across the front of my shoulders was very evident and clear, in that what I needed to do was in fact surrender… surrender to my body. To let go of all the tension and protection I was holding on to, and most of all, surrender to the tenderness that was there – all along.
I had thought that I was ‘needy’ or wanting intimacy but in fact what I really craved was my own tenderness – of me being loving and tender with myself in every way. Not only was this tenderness with myself but also about honouring and accepting myself as the woman that I am.
For so many years I had tried to prove to my father I was ‘as good as a boy’, later as a result I always sought recognition and approval through work and what I did to feel good enough about myself as a person by being physically strong like a male, but in the process I ended up only hardening or constricting my feminine body and consequently fighting against my true nature – that of being the loving, tender, precious and sacred woman that I am unfolding today.
With much appreciation for the inspiration and support from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine… surrendering to tenderness is just the beginning of discovering who I am as a true woman.
by Paula Steffensen, Goonellabah, NSW
For Further Reading:
Breast Massage & the Esoteric Breast Massage – an Open Approach